Burn Baby Burn

 Burn the backpack and break the crystal.

I like the alliteration there. But I’m not writing a poem. Thats the advice my neighbor gave me about some  objects I own that could be harboring bad energy.

What am I talking about? I have a backpack I’ve had (and have recently been using in lieu of a purse, because I have so much junk) that was a gift from an old boyfriend. If you didn’t know, which I didn’t, you shouldn’t keep stuff like that from old relationships, especially if you’re trying to purge yourself of the memories, move on, etc. 

And the best way to get rid of that s***? Burn it.

This is what my neighbor told me, a man of faith and learned knowledge. “Fire is the best cleanser.”

So I’ve been walking around with this backpack, literally carrying baggage from this relationship. Could we get any more ironic?…

And I’ve been carrying this amethyst crystal around, hoping it would imbue me with some good power. I also wear an amethyst ring my grandmother gave me; she told me it helped with grief. And I read on the internet that amethyst wards against intoxication. Hm. I could use both of those powers, as I’m trying not to drink while my family keeps dying around me :(

Does the crystal work? Maybe it does. Maybe it doesn’t. Does it hurt to wear it? It was a gift with good intentions. I could say the same thing about the backpack. 

But the rock did a bad thing. Over a month ago it sliced my thumb open, while I was digging around my purse for it. It was Deep. There was Blood. I Needed a bandaid. I don’t like boo boos. I couldn’t believe this beautiful amulet would hurt me. But rocks have edges and they are sharp. Go figure (also this happened the day before my dad passed. Bad timing).

So the rock had to go. And since I couldn’t burn it, I crushed it with a hammer (I’m starting to sound like a very destructive person).

 Maybe this doesn’t make sense to you at all. I’ve done my own research about energy and crystals. Well, okay, I’ve watched some YouTube videos. I can’t say anything definitively. I can’t prove the rock works, so I don’t mind parting with it (I seem to be doing fine on my own). As my neighbor said “that thing hurt you. Get rid of it.”

It could be possessed, I don’t know. I don’t know where it came from. I found it at my grandparents, actually in their car, and my nana said I could have it. I have a feeling it belonged to my sister, who was  into that stuff. I don’t know where she would have got it. I never prayed over it or cleansed it. I kept it in my sisters memory box for a long time. I thought it was pretty, and never thought it harbored bad juju. After it cut me I tried to get rid of the damn thing, I offered it to my brother and he didn’t even want it. So. 

This probably sounds very woo woo to you all. Even I don’t understand it all. 

But I believe in energy and spirit and all that jazz. Spiritually speaking…I can see a merkaba around the moon. Maybe my vision is screwed up, I don’t know. Why does the air in front of me seem to swirl and vibrate? Why am I seeing bright blue dots when I close my eyes? And my dreams…don’t get me started. Something is going on. Maybe you notice it, too.

So when a good friend, who is a person I admire and trust, asked me why I would hold onto these objects, of which their positive or negative energy could not be verified, I had the faith to let them go.

I’m not taking any chances.


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